Head for the Rhomboid Molar in the Orange Gum
July 27, 2024 No Comments10th February 2019 The experiment of my new life continues. Little experiments. Like whether or not to wear a full wetsuit, a full rash suit complete with stirrupy-things for my feet; a mere rash vest, or, god forbid, just my swimming cozzie, for one of many long-distance, open water swims this week. Medium-sized experiments. Like […]
Read MoreAt least! At least!! At least!!!
July 27, 2024 1 Comment20th January 2019 – Writing Prompt from Megan DevineImage by Julia Grace “In religion, as in war and everything else, comfort is the one thing you cannot get by looking for it. If you look for truth, you may find comfort in the end: if you look for comfort you will not get either comfort […]
Read MoreMaybe Mike Was Right All Along
July 27, 2024 2 Comments16th January 2019 Quite a few years ago I decided “not to do guilt”. It’s served me well. At risk of sounding like a psychopath or a narcissist, who also apparently do not “do guilt”, I am sure I have saved hours and days, possibly weeks, of my time. While I can feel less than […]
Read MoreTen Things I Know To Be True
July 27, 2024 2 CommentsPhoto Courtesy of Sarah Treanor (streanor.com) One. Mike was one in a million. My life was a million times better with Mike. I have a million more problems without Mike. I have a million fewer resources without Mike. Mike was a million million good things. His death has meant a million million bad things. I […]
Read MoreGood Grief! Love Hurts
July 27, 2024 2 CommentsMain image courtesy of Sarah Treanor (streanor.com) 17th November 2018 When I was in my mid-20s, a lovely TV series starring Adam Faith and Zoe Wanamaker came out. It was called “Love Hurts”. The internet tells me it ran from 1992-1994. I don’t really remember anymore what it was all about. A forbidden, messy relationship, […]
Read MoreGrief is not contagious… and yet….
July 27, 2024 No Comments7th November 2018 Grief is not contagious… and yet… It reverberates inside me And outside me Almost invisible But not quite Truly felt Like contours On a detailed orienteering map Or soundwaves Invisible Yet felt All over Grief affects Every thought I think Every feeling I feel Every emotion I experience Every […]
Read MoreEclipsed (again) by the Shock and the Horror
July 27, 2024 No Comments5th November 2018 When… When will I really “get” that Mike is dead? When will the knowing finally sink in? When will the remembering not punch me full force in the gut? As if I didn’t already know. When will the pavement not open up with a chasmic (?) hole as I wander innocently about […]
Read MoreAirports are Emotional Places
July 27, 2024 No CommentsMain photo credit Sarah Treanor (streanor.com) 1st November 2018 – All Saints’ Day. (Where have all the saints gone? Can someone send a few my way please?) I feel like I am rapidly becoming some version of Tom Hanks in “The Terminal”, stuck in the “airport system”, being shunted around from Boarding Gate to Transfer/Service […]
Read MoreDespite all my efforting, he’s still dead
July 27, 2024 1 Commentmain photo credits Sarah Treanor streanor.com 29th October 2018 One day last week, I think it was Thursday, I was going through piles of paperwork at home at the kitchen table. Sophia, my new LIPSY (live-in pet sitter) was doing some of her own work at the kitchen table too. Round and round I was […]
Read MoreSilent Celebrations
July 27, 2024 No Comments27 October 2018 I just looked up the definition of the word “Celebration”, not because I don’t know what it means, but because its common, everyday use, seems inadequate. Inadequate in my current life. “The action of celebrating an important day or event”. Also, “A social gathering or enjoyable activity held to celebrate something”. At […]
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