Widowing Empty Nests

Sliced and Diced and Cored

September 22, 2020 1 Comment

14th September 2020 Featured Photo by Nikolai Chernichenko on Unsplash I have written quite a bit about my challenging relationship with Death Admin. That I despise it. That it’s painful. That it takes too much time and energy and money. That it is prone to make me cry bitter, angry and hurting tears. And that […]

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Life, After

September 22, 2020 No Comments

Images from various places on the internet 7th September 2020 Sometime after Mike died – perhaps a matter of months – Megan came to me and said, “Muuuuum – my Netflix account isn’t working”. It’s possible that I said, “What’s Netflix?”, but I don’t think I was living under a rock to quite that degree. […]

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Dying to Live or Living to Die?

September 22, 2020 No Comments

Photo by Juliana Malta on Unsplash 30 August 2020 I have just written this for my 53rd piece of weekly writing for Soaring Spirits International, which means I have been writing on their site for a year. My gentlest year in five years. I wanted so much to be able to write that there had […]

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Love Threading Through My Week

September 22, 2020 No Comments

24 August 2020 Today’s – no – this week’s – topic is Love. As I sit and reflect on what to write about, as with last week, there seem to be lots of different topics. All interesting at some level, but not “enough” to make a blog post out of. So my next question is, […]

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A Week’s Ramblings

September 22, 2020 No Comments

Main Photo – Paris Sunrise after a Storm 17 August 2020 I could write about five or more different topics this morning. Or none. The five feel valid but somewhat anecdotal. A bit light. And yet they are not. Not a lot is light in my life. Which is okay. And there is lightness. I […]

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A Letter of Encouragement to my Widbuds

September 22, 2020 2 Comments

All photos my own and taken these past days in the Pyrenees Orientales, France. 9th August 2020 I could write tons of letters of encouragement to my Widbuds, or indeed Grieflings of any fragrance or flavour. Whether it’s about putting one foot in front of the other; trusting that one heartbeat or breath will follow […]

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Nice enough. Just not “right”

September 22, 2020 No Comments

View of the Canigou from my parents’ house 3 August 2020 We have been on holiday now for a “fat” week. “We” is Megan, Ben, Medjool and me. A “fat” week is 10 days. The first 7 days were spent in the Camargue, a beautifully wild part of southern France, around the Rhône Delta, famous for […]

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Let Me See Where Mike Is At

September 22, 2020 1 Comment

26 July 2020 On Friday, a couple of days ago, some dear friends, Trisha, Angus & Isobel from London, came to stay for the evening/night before heading into the Swiss Alps for some summer holiday mountain respite. Dear friends to me, to Mike, and to each of our kids, all of whom were born after […]

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Grief Maths

September 22, 2020 2 Comments

20 July 2020 Main Image by Angela Franklin, “Grief Will Teach You Math, When You Subtract One” (2019) https://demifgallery.com/artworks/9478-angela-franklin-grief-will-teach-you-math-when-you-subtract-2019/ I am no mathematician. I was pretty weak at maths at school, and given the option of having 7 or 8 hours of maths a week vs 3 or 4 hours in my final two years, […]

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Wrapping Loss in Love

September 22, 2020 3 Comments

Photo by Kevin Fong 14 July 2020 I spend a lot of my time reading about death, dying, and grieving, participating in webinars and holding space sessions with grief experts, people who’ve developed wise perspective on what it is to love, to lose, and to continue living. Apart from two moments since Mike’s death, I […]

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