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Thirteenth of April

April 17, 2024 1 Comment

Photos my own/from my own collection. Main photo featuring stunning flowers received this week from precious Joan, Mike and Julia’s funeral cards, and a birthday card for Julia from her tree letter box. 13th April 2024 Twenty-eight years ago today, 13th April 1996, in Grasmere, Cumbria, it was trying hard to snow. Snowing in mid-April? […]

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The Youth of Today

April 17, 2024 3 Comments

Photos my own Written on 6th April; posted on 8th April 2024 A week ago, on 30th March, Julia would have been 20. Would-have-could-have-should-have-might-have been 20. Sometimes I cannot imagine her at 20, because she only made it to 15, and 15 and 20 are so very different in so many ways. And then at […]

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Being Danced

April 17, 2024 No Comments

Main Photo by Javier Allegue Barros on Unsplash 29 March 2024 I remember when, in guided meditation teachings, I learned not just to pay attention to my breath, but to notice instead that I truly had to do nothing to take care of breathing….(duh!) That if I tried to manage, control, steer (etc) my breathing, […]

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Birthday Girl Over Eons and Ages

April 17, 2024 No Comments

Main image by Annie Spratt on Unsplash 28 March 2024 Yesterday, 27th March, was my birthday. Yes, I announce it far and wide. Even at the grand young-old age of 57. Rather like I have done since I was aged about five or six. I vividly remember when we still lived in Swansea, Wales (we […]

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Number Noodlings and Doodlings

April 17, 2024 No Comments

Photo (*) by Chris Linnett on Unsplash 5 March 2024 For a non-mathematician, I have a canny way with numbers. Or perhaps it’s simply the patterns in the numbers that I like. For I do love patterns of most kinds – especially the people-pattern kind, but that’s another story. My dad has a childhood bestie […]

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Magical Deepening of Mystery and Awareness – aka MDMA

April 17, 2024 No Comments

Main image by Meritt Thomas on Unsplash 16th & 23rd February 2024 Two months ago, in mid-December 2023, I had my second psychedelic-induced non-ordinary experience. I wrote up a bit about the experience here – but always wanted to write more when I’d integrated, sensed into, and reflected upon things further. I’ve found that writing […]

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For the Love of Dog – again (*).

April 17, 2024 1 Comment

Photos my own, taken this week, February 2024 16 February 2024 Confession: I have whole and complete, two-way conversations with myself. Sometimes it’s all in my head. Sometimes I talk out loud. Usually after I have been up a little while but am not yet in full-on work mode. Puttering around in the bathroom or […]

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The Soothing of One’s Kids Being in a “Good Place”

April 17, 2024 1 Comment

Photo by Nathan Dumlao on Unsplash 12 February 2024 Over the past few days, I have had opportunities to catch up with my alive kids, Ben and Megan. At risk of tempting fate by writing what I am about to write, because it feels so special, I find I don’t want to pass up on […]

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Wintering and Springing – or so I hope

April 17, 2024 No Comments

Photo by Bernd 📷 Dittrich on Unsplash 6th February 2024 We are now into February. There’s barely any snow on the Jura. The hills look like they typically look in April-, or even May-time. It’s sunny, and, standing in the sunshine, it feels warm (though I still scrape ice off my car windscreen on the […]

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Regenerating Julia

April 17, 2024 4 Comments

Main image by Markus Spiske on Unsplash 17th January 2024 That the brain automatically seeks to join dots and make connections with seemingly disparate things is well known. We need coherence, want to make sense of things, form whole Gestalts, not just because the alternative is otherwise just a bunch of data points, but also […]

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