Widowing Empty Nests

A Week’s Ramblings

October 27, 2020 No Comments

Main Photo – Paris Sunrise after a Storm 17 August 2020 I could write about five or more different topics this morning. Or none. The five feel valid but somewhat anecdotal. A bit light. And yet they are not. Not a lot is light in my life. Which is okay. And there is lightness. I […]

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A Letter of Encouragement to my Widbuds

October 27, 2020 2 Comments

All photos my own and taken these past days in the Pyrenees Orientales, France. 9th August 2020 I could write tons of letters of encouragement to my Widbuds, or indeed Grieflings of any fragrance or flavour. Whether it’s about putting one foot in front of the other; trusting that one heartbeat or breath will follow […]

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Nice enough. Just not “right”

October 27, 2020 No Comments

View of the Canigou from my parents’ house 3 August 2020 We have been on holiday now for a “fat” week. “We” is Megan, Ben, Medjool and me. A “fat” week is 10 days. The first 7 days were spent in the Camargue, a beautifully wild part of southern France, around the Rhône Delta, famous for […]

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Let Me See Where Mike Is At

October 27, 2020 1 Comment

26 July 2020 On Friday, a couple of days ago, some dear friends, Trisha, Angus & Isobel from London, came to stay for the evening/night before heading into the Swiss Alps for some summer holiday mountain respite. Dear friends to me, to Mike, and to each of our kids, all of whom were born after […]

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Grief Maths

October 27, 2020 2 Comments

20 July 2020 Main Image by Angela Franklin, “Grief Will Teach You Math, When You Subtract One” (2019) https://demifgallery.com/artworks/9478-angela-franklin-grief-will-teach-you-math-when-you-subtract-2019/ I am no mathematician. I was pretty weak at maths at school, and given the option of having 7 or 8 hours of maths a week vs 3 or 4 hours in my final two years, […]

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Wrapping Loss in Love

October 27, 2020 3 Comments

Photo by Kevin Fong 14 July 2020 I spend a lot of my time reading about death, dying, and grieving, participating in webinars and holding space sessions with grief experts, people who’ve developed wise perspective on what it is to love, to lose, and to continue living. Apart from two moments since Mike’s death, I […]

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Post Mortem – a year on

October 27, 2020 1 Comment

All photos my own 6 July 2020 This past week we have been honouring and commemorating Julia. (And Mike. And Ed. And Don. Of course). Like we do every day. Of course. But particularly Julia this week. The first “deathiversary”. The first anniversary post mortem. I don’t really know why the one-year anniversary feels like […]

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Right Down to the Weather

October 27, 2020 3 Comments

Main Photo by Marc Wieland on Unsplash 28 June 2020 So there we have it.Here we are again.Time has rolled around. As it is wont to do.Dates might not have, but the sense, the weight of that Sunday night 52 weeks ago, most definitely has. A hot day in our part of the world with […]

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Commemorating Julia. Seriously? WTF?!?

October 27, 2020 1 Comment

23 June 2020 I feel I honour Julia every day. In some way. Sometimes small ways. Sometimes big ways. What is honouring anyway? Remembering? Talking to her? Talking about her? Sitting quietly and remembering something specific? Nodding to her massive copper bowl of rose petals in the lounge? Forming a twisted, lop-sided smile at one […]

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Incongruities of a Summer’s Day

October 27, 2020 1 Comment

Photo of Montreux by Armand Khoury on Unsplash 22nd June 2020 Just like I always feel a twinge of glee on 21st December (we have reached the shortest and darkest 24-hour period in the Northern Hemisphere – phew and yippee!), I also feel a twinge of sadness on 21st June when we have reached the […]

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