Widowing Empty Nests

Long Live Live Music

December 3, 2020 No Comments

Main Photo by Clem Onojeghuo on Unsplash and others from GECA website and Guildhall Gold Medal Concert 2020 28 September 2020 One of the phrases that I hear, and that I use myself, in my still new, post-loss world, is “this life of after”. It’s a phrase that would do well to be used too […]

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From “What’s Wrong?” to “What’s Possible?”

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Main Image by Leonardo Santamaria for NPR 22 September 2020 Confession: I have no idea where this piece of writing will go. Another confession: That happens quite often with these blogposts, though for sure much of my writing comes from a specific incident that has stood out during my week. Other times I latch onto […]

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Sliced and Diced and Cored

December 3, 2020 1 Comment

14th September 2020 Featured Photo by Nikolai Chernichenko on Unsplash I have written quite a bit about my challenging relationship with Death Admin. That I despise it. That it’s painful. That it takes too much time and energy and money. That it is prone to make me cry bitter, angry and hurting tears. And that […]

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Life, After

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Images from various places on the internet 7th September 2020 Sometime after Mike died – perhaps a matter of months – Megan came to me and said, “Muuuuum – my Netflix account isn’t working”. It’s possible that I said, “What’s Netflix?”, but I don’t think I was living under a rock to quite that degree. […]

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Dying to Live or Living to Die?

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Photo by Juliana Malta on Unsplash 30 August 2020 I have just written this for my 53rd piece of weekly writing for Soaring Spirits International, which means I have been writing on their site for a year. My gentlest year in five years. I wanted so much to be able to write that there had […]

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Love Threading Through My Week

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24 August 2020 Today’s – no – this week’s – topic is Love. As I sit and reflect on what to write about, as with last week, there seem to be lots of different topics. All interesting at some level, but not “enough” to make a blog post out of. So my next question is, […]

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A Week’s Ramblings

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Main Photo – Paris Sunrise after a Storm 17 August 2020 I could write about five or more different topics this morning. Or none. The five feel valid but somewhat anecdotal. A bit light. And yet they are not. Not a lot is light in my life. Which is okay. And there is lightness. I […]

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A Letter of Encouragement to my Widbuds

December 3, 2020 2 Comments

All photos my own and taken these past days in the Pyrenees Orientales, France. 9th August 2020 I could write tons of letters of encouragement to my Widbuds, or indeed Grieflings of any fragrance or flavour. Whether it’s about putting one foot in front of the other; trusting that one heartbeat or breath will follow […]

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Nice enough. Just not “right”

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View of the Canigou from my parents’ house 3 August 2020 We have been on holiday now for a “fat” week. “We” is Megan, Ben, Medjool and me. A “fat” week is 10 days. The first 7 days were spent in the Camargue, a beautifully wild part of southern France, around the Rhône Delta, famous for […]

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Let Me See Where Mike Is At

December 3, 2020 1 Comment

26 July 2020 On Friday, a couple of days ago, some dear friends, Trisha, Angus & Isobel from London, came to stay for the evening/night before heading into the Swiss Alps for some summer holiday mountain respite. Dear friends to me, to Mike, and to each of our kids, all of whom were born after […]

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