Three-Way Pact
August 5, 2021 No CommentsImage by Marek Piwnicki on Unsplash 23 July 2021 What does someone, who wants to believe in the spirit world, and believe that we are souls having a human experience, do, when she has a “meh” experience with someone claiming to connect with spirits of loved ones who have died? She finds another spirit whisperer. […]
Read MoreYet Another Secondary Loss
August 5, 2021 No CommentsMain image by Patty Brito on Unsplash 17 July 2021 I have had another big secondary loss. Secondary losses are the endless losses that pile on following the primary loss(es) – (i.e., death). Secondary losses relate to needing to move house, finance changes, slight or major shifts in friends’ dealings with you, minor or dramatic […]
Read MoreNoticing and Shifting Patterns of Living with Loss(es)
August 5, 2021 No CommentsMain image by Pawel Czerwinski on Unsplash 13 July 2021 In the last few years, I have come across the field of “Human Systems Dynamics” (HSD), which offers ways of thinking and tools for exploring complex human systems. I learn about it mostly for professional reasons, but since my professional and personal interests are so […]
Read MoreSunrise over Chamonix after running through the night
August 5, 2021 No CommentsPhotos my own, taken in Chamonix, France Originally written on 7 June 2021 Early in June this year, I was invited to write piece for “Like the Wind” magazine, founded by my friends Julie & Simon Freeman. Her “ask” was to write something running-related in.connection with the Sun. They wanted to have a series of […]
Read MoreCommemobrating
August 5, 2021 1 CommentPhotos my own 6 July 2021 I survived last week.I survived 30 June and 1 July.I survived the two year “deathiversary” of Julia’s death. Forever split across a date line, two days of the week, two dates, two months, even two quarters.Because from when I “know” she took her life, to when she was “officially” […]
Read MoreWhen “ex” means alive
August 5, 2021 No CommentsPhoto my own. Our wedding rings turned into this necklace by jeweller Heather McDermott on the Isle of Skye 2 July 2021 Something I noodle over from time to time, is the weirdness of the word “ex-“ when prefixed to another word. Like “ex-boyfriend” or “ex-lover” or “ex-wife”. The “ex-“ invariably means “alive”, and not […]
Read MoreAnd life, with all its devastation, trundles on
August 5, 2021 1 CommentPunch-to-the-gut-photo which popped up on my facebook feed this week …. Julia & Megan playing oboe & flute, 21 June 2014 28 June 2021 I have just read a HuffPost article about how differently the “Back to Normal” phrase can be received by people, depending on what you’ve been living, what you’ve experienced. The link […]
Read MoreNavigating Multiple Worlds
August 5, 2021 1 CommentImage by Denise Jans on Unsplash 21 June 2021 It’s been a choppy week. A choppy week full of choppy days. I feel I have been on a constant dance, in and out of multiple worlds. Which is not quite how it might sound, in that I have not actually been in a coma, bordering […]
Read MoreDischarging Guilt
August 5, 2021 3 CommentsMain image by Callum Skelton on Unsplash 12 June 2021 One of Julia’s best friends, whose family asked me very directly, some six months after her death, never to contact them again, turned up unexpectedly at my door about 10 days ago. The door was wide open, and I only knew she was there because […]
Read MoreDisappointed in the Spirit World
August 5, 2021 No CommentsPhoto by Marek Piwnicki on Unsplash 7 June 2021 I want to believe in the Spirit world.I want to believe and trust in Mediums.I do believe in the Spirit world.And I do believe and trust in Mediums.Mostly. And yet… I can’t help but feel disappointed. Where were Mike’s and Julia’s spirits on a small group […]
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