Month: <span>December 2020</span>

Shattered Christmases

September 28, 2021 2 Comments

Random image of broken Christmas tree 23 December 2020 Weird shit happens at this time of year. Weird shit gets said at this time of year too. It feels like it is just a stream of obscene extremes. So many types of polarities and tensions, to hold and somehow absorb. To try not to get […]

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Missing and MISSING

September 28, 2021 No Comments

16 December 2020 Main image by Sarah Treanor on streanor.com One of the (many) difficult things about loss and grieving is that while it makes up an inordinately large portion of my life (and is sometimes all-consuming), it is hard to express, lonely to experience, and frustrating in its unpredictability. I rarely feel understood except […]

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My First Podcast – On Living With Loss (What Else?)

September 28, 2021 No Comments

14th December 2020 Image by Matt Botsford on Unsplash My first ever podcast 2020 has been the year of being on webinars and panel discussions about grief and loss and suicide and more but this is the first podcast, and I think it’s worth sharing.

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Today, I have lived 19,615 days

September 28, 2021 2 Comments

Main image by Jonathan Chng on Unsplash 8th December 2020 Today I have lived 19,615 daysToday, 8th December 2020, I am the exact age, to the day, that Mike was when he diedMike was born on 27th July 1963I was born on 27th March 1967Mike died on 8th April 2017I… am alive on 8th December […]

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Saturated Night Terrors

September 28, 2021 No Comments

6th December 2020 Saturated Night Terrors – sounds a little like Saturday Night Fever, doesn’t it? I woke up earlier than I hoped to this morning from a terrifying dream. As with most dreams and nightmares, it felt so very real. I don’t know what it all means. I mulled it over immediately afterwards, but […]

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